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Moët mimosas in paradise, anybody? Nothing like drinking your...

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 11:36:13 -0500

Moët mimosas in paradise, anybody? Nothing like drinking your breakfast while sitting in your private villa overlooking cruz bay.

Oh hey, it’s been a while. Between school, and depression, and Homestuck, and the other blog,...

Sat, 02 Feb 2013 23:51:50 -0500

Oh hey, it’s been a while.

Between school, and depression, and Homestuck, and the other blog, I don’t think I’ve posted here in months.

My bad, yo.

Homagerrrr

Tue, 07 Aug 2012 20:34:23 -0400

Homagerrrr

It is Penis Friday, and I have yet to see a penis. Is tumblr broken?

Fri, 03 Aug 2012 04:40:49 -0400

It is Penis Friday, and I have yet to see a penis.

Is tumblr broken?

Drunk rant commence

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 16:01:08 -0400

I am involved in a somewhat messy, complicated, friend-engagement-relationship. When I say it’s messy and complicated, what I really mean is it isn’t. At all. But no one understands it. And of course when people don’t understand something, they feel the constant need to judge it.

He’s fit. I’m fit. He’s bisexual. I’m pansexual. He doesn’t believe in serious closed marriages, and neither do I. He doesn’t want kids, I don’t want kids. We have a lot in common. We get along. It’s a good situation. He has things I need, and I have things he needs. I want to live in the UK and get fed vegan food I don’t have to cook, and have lots of sex. He wants to have lots of sex, have someone bake for him, and have steady access to my (incredibly shitty) porn. We both want to be free to pursue other people. There’s nothing wrong with that, and it’s not complicated.

But everyone wants to make it complicated, or judge it. I have one friend who understands it, and she is my lady husband, and she understands it because IT’S NOT DIFFICULT.

I want a stable relationship. I want to live with someone who I enjoy, who makes me laugh and makes me happy. Stable relationship DOES NOT IN ANY WAY equal monogamous relationship. I’m not capable of a monogamous relationship right now. Maybe at some point in the future, but not now. And why would I want one? I’m young, and sexy, and I can never contain my feelings to just one person. Why would I force myself into a monogamous relationship when I KNOW I’m just going to cheat anyway? What’s the point of all the bullshit?

That’s the point of this. No bullshit. No jealousy, no cheating, no stupid fighting. And everyone looks at me like I’m fucking insane because I’m happy being with someone who is happy being with other people and happy that I want to be with other people.

There is absolutely nothing complicated, messy, or worthy of judgement about the basic premise of this. But when other people get involved, it becomes a problem.

We both have a mutual friend who feels the need to get involved. They have feelings for him, and it’s completely not reciprocated and completely ridiculous. Last night it went overboard. Without going too much into the details of what happened, I’ll just say that this person (in my opinion) was so frustrated by what’s going on between me and him that they were actively trying to force him onto someone else.

Which is fine. I honestly don’t care who he sleeps with, and I expect the same of him. What I do care about is people, who don’t understand the situation AT ALL, trying to get in the middle of it. It’s NOT YOUR RELATIONSHIP. I know how you feel. I’ve been in the situation before where I’ve fancied someone who didn’t return it. So you either choose to stay friends and never talk about it again, or you get out of their lives and continue to bask in your unrequited feelings. One or the other.

You can’t have a middle ground. You can’t stay in their lives, and constantly nag them about stuff. Friends don’t nag. You can’t constantly rub your feelings in their face. That’s not okay. And most importantly, you can’t/shouldn’t/why would you try to alienate me or make me jealous?

You want a relationship with him. That’s awesome. You most likely want a monogamous, closed, completely boring relationship. Great. That’s not what I want. I want to be able to do whatever I like, then have someone I can come home to at the end of the night, and cuddle and swap sex stories. It’s not monogamous, not closed, not boring. But they don’t seem to understand that, and their constant jealousy infuriates me like nothing else.

It’s not my fault we like each other. I DIDN’T CHOOSE THIS. It just happened. I didn’t choose for him to not like you. It just happened. So how exactly is any of this my fault.

HOW EXACTLY IS ANYONE’S RELATIONSHIP EVER ANYONE ELSE’S BUSINESS?

I am a legal, consenting adult. I am of (mostly) sound mind and body. I have made a decision about my life, that doesn’t involve ANYONE ELSE except for the person that I’m making the decision with. So why does everyone constantly feel the need to nag me about it?

No, it doesn’t make sense. No, it’s not normal. That doesn’t make it unhealthy, and it doesn’t make it wrong. Just because you don’t understand something, doesn’t give you the right to judge it or try to interfere in it.

Fuck me. Alright, I have to stop here before I just start screaming at my laptop. Rant over.

Let's spend a minute talking about open relationships, jealous bitches, depression issues, and my cuntiness.

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 15:20:57 -0400

But first, I need a cigarette and more alcohol, because this is a personal rant about my personal life which is sure to seriously offend several people IN my personal life and they may decide to kill me.

Suicide by pissed off followers.

horror-movie-confessions: “I’m want to to do dirty things to...

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 14:59:09 -0400

horror-movie-confessions:

“I’m want to to do dirty things to Alex from A Clockwork Orange.”

Photo

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 14:41:02 -0400

Photo

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 14:40:50 -0400

Photo

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 14:40:38 -0400

Bull. Shit.

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 14:40:26 -0400

Bull. Shit.

I want to rip my uterus out of my body with my bare hands, smash it against the wall, and scream...

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 13:40:52 -0400

I want to rip my uterus out of my body with my bare hands, smash it against the wall, and scream triumphantly as blood drips from my hands.

WHY THE FUCK DO PERIODS EVEN HAVE TO EXIST WHY ARE WE NOT SPENDING ALL OF OUR TIME AND RESOURCES FINDING A WAY TO END THIS TERRIBLE EVENT?

Oh yeah, society hates women and wants us to suffer.

Everyone needs to stop complaining that they cast a cis woman to play a trans woman on Hit &...

Mon, 16 Jul 2012 10:13:15 -0400

Everyone needs to stop complaining that they cast a cis woman to play a trans woman on Hit & Miss. It’s not offensive. It’s called acting. They rarely hire real ballet dancers to play ones in movies, Andrew Scott (probably) doesn’t actually blow people up, and sometimes it’s okay to hire someone to be something they aren’t. This isn’t a documentary, it’s a tv show. They picked the actress who was best for the role.

“When I watch you, I wanna do you right where you’re...

Mon, 16 Jul 2012 09:54:05 -0400

“When I watch you, I wanna do you right where you’re standing (yeah)
Right on the foyer, on this dark day, right in plain view (oh yeah)
Of the whole ghetto. The boots stomp meadows, but we ignore that (yeah)
You’re lovely, baby. This war is crazy. I won’t let you down (Oh no no)

No, I won’t let them take you, won’t let them take you
Hell no no, oh no, I won’t let them take you, won’t let them take you
Hell no no.

No, oh no no no!

And when our city, vast and shitty, falls to the axis (yeah)
They’ll search the buildings, collect gold fillings, wallets and rings (oh yeah)
But Ms. Black Eyeliner, you’d look finer with each day in hiding (oh yeah)
Beneath the wormwood, oooh, love me so good.
They won’t hear us screw away the day. I’ll make you say:

(Alive! Alive!
Alive with love, alive with love tonight)

No, I won’t let them take you, won’t let them take you
Hell no no, oh no, I won’t let them take you, won’t let them take you
Hell no no.

Our Treblinka is alive with the glory of love!
Treblinka, alive, with the glory of love, yeah!

Should they catch us and dispatch us to those separate work camps,
I’ll dream about you. I will not doubt you with the passing of time (oh yeah)
Should they kill me, your love will fill me, as warm as the bullets (yeah)
I’ll know my purpose. This war was worth this. I won’t let you down.
No, I won’t
No, I won’t
No, I won’t

(Alive! Alive!)
(Alive with love, alive with love tonight)
Hell no no, oh no (Alive! Alive!)
I won’t let them take you, won’t let them take you (Alive with love, alive with love tonight)
Hell no, no
No, no”

Fucking gorgeous. I wish I was capable of those kinds of feelings.

“Weather man said it’s gonna snow By now I should be used...

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 23:36:30 -0400

“Weather man said it’s gonna snow
By now I should be used to the cold
Mid-February shouldn’t be so scary
It was only December
I still remember the presents, the tree, you and me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you

Living alone here in this place
I think of you, and I’m not afraid
Your favorite records make me feel better
Cause you sing along
With every song
I know you didn’t mean to give them to me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you

It really sinks in, you know, when I see it in stone

Cause you went away,
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you”

Tommy gun, you were fantastic and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of you and miss you. I know it’s been almost 7 years now and I should be over it, but I lost a part of me when you died and I’m never going to get it back. I’ll love you forever, even if I can’t be in love with you anymore, and I’m not afraid to say that about you because you always made it safe to love you when everyone else just makes it terrifying. RIP Tom Hawthorne and Eric Hart, you’re always on my mind, 8/20/2005.

Infinite cries. I’m going to be a wreck on the actual day.

I think I would have been a really good mom. Fuck me, I don’t even want children. I just hate...

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 15:43:00 -0400

I think I would have been a really good mom. Fuck me, I don’t even want children. I just hate that I wasn’t given a choice in whether or not to keep the baby. Losing it was the most difficult thing I’ve ever been through, and I don’t think I’ll ever recover from it.

There is nothing I hate more on the planet than being ignored. I’d rather be shot in the leg....

Tue, 03 Jul 2012 20:37:47 -0400

There is nothing I hate more on the planet than being ignored. I’d rather be shot in the leg. I hate introverts.

Makeup ahhhhhh (Taken with Instagram)

Tue, 03 Jul 2012 13:16:30 -0400

Makeup ahhhhhh (Taken with Instagram)

My face when my life is falling apart, and I’m having a complete nervous breakdown, and none...

Sun, 24 Jun 2012 01:22:47 -0400

My face when my life is falling apart, and I’m having a complete nervous breakdown, and none of the people I’m currently involved with are available.

I just fucking can’t, okay? This isn’t okay. There are like 5 of you, where the fuck are you?

My face when: food poisoning.

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 00:47:29 -0400

My face when: food poisoning.